the vines

the last two days were nice. kelly slpet over last night and we had a blast. well i did any way. tomorrow there is nothing planned. im sure some thing will come up, maybe a diner visit. that would be nice. i want to hang out with sean.  make sure its not all weird and junk. i hope its not. sean is great. i'll write back in two days. maybe. i think im gonna make a new xaga. this one is really stupid.

from autumn to ashes-short storise with tragic endings
last night sean took me and kelly to the island. first we went to the cheg. alot of assholes from school were there. bleh. then we went to the beach,and there was a cliff. and kelly fell off. and then sean fell half off and the water came up and splashed him. all over. so he was pretty wet and we left. and dropped off kelly. we were on the way to my house and sean pulled over. and i was really really scared. i dont know why, its not like hed actually do anything and if he tried i could kick his ass. after a few seconds he said 'do you wanna drive?' bastard. i should have taken him up on the offer. but i didnt. i took a nap today. and had this funny dream about sean. he was my limo driver for the night. and it was the old crappy one we saw last night. and there was hundreds of buttons every where and they were all gold and they all said rats on them. and sean was saying 'where to miss' like every five seconds. and it made me so mad. so we go out and i 'kicked his arm with my fist' and i fell on him. and i woke up. and ate dinner.

x. movie you rented = rebel with out a cause or evil dead 2 beautiful james dean and bruce cambell
x. movie you bought = i never bought a movie
x. song you listened to = dandelion- 7 angels 7 plagues
x. song that was stuck in your head = short stories with tragic endings-fata

x. song you've downloaded = hey now girl-phantom planet

x. cd you bought = i don’t think i have ever bought myself a cd
x. cd you listened to = full collapse thursday

x. person you've called = kelly

x. person that's called you = my grandmom

x. you have a bf or gf = nope

x. you wish you could live somewhere else = i like it here just fine.
x. you think about suicide = i sure do. not for myself. just other people i dont like

x. you believe in online dating = no way

x. others find you attractive = nope

x. you want more piercings = i want my septum done.

x. you want more tattoos = any day the star will be there. and i drew up a nice w[x]c one i want soon.
x. you do drugs = nope

x. you like cleaning = im a fucking maid.

x. you like roller coasters = i love em. im in need for a good scream right about now.

x. you write in cursive or print = i think its kind of a mix

x. you carry a donor card = nope

for or against
x. long distance relationships = sure
x. using someone = against i think

x. suicide = for, just other people. my life is nice.
x. killing people = FOR
x. teenage smoking = for

x. doing drugs = i wont knock it til i try it.

x. premarital sex = against it. even tho im in whore[x]core. i can still be a whore virgin.
x. driving drunk = against.
x. gay/lesbian relationships = for, if you like it.

x. soap operas = they are stupid.

favorite...
x. food = chicken fingers
x. song = there is to many
x. thing to do = hangout in our alley, or by the stream. and go to the diners

x. thing to talk about = new w[x]c missions

x. sports = eh
x. drinks = wild cherry pepsi, dr pepper, rc, and coke.

x. clothes = jeans and t shirts. and flip flops. or my nikes

x. movies = rebel with out a cause, the evil deads, dead alive, and benny and joon

x. band = i dont have one. but i miss zao.

x. holiday = the fall holidays
x. cars = 63 oldsmobiles
have you...
x. ever cried over a girl or guy = yep.

x. ever lied to someone = yes i have
x. ever been in a fist fight = yea, i got in a fight last year and got my ass kicked.
x. ever been arrested = no.

what...
x. shampoo do you use the kind in blue bottles

x. perfume do you use = mary kay.
x. shoes do you wear = flip flops, my skate shoes, or my blue nikes.

x. are you scared of = nothing.
number...
x. of times I have had my heart broken?: 4

x. of hearts I have broken?: none
x. of times I have been in love: never
x. of boys I have kissed?: i think 10. maybe 11 or 9

x. of girls I have kissed?: none
x. of continents I have lived in?: just this one.
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: 4
x. of people I consider my enemies?: anyone but the 4.

x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with?: im still in high school.
x. of cd's that I own?: probably 4. its sad. poor people dont buy cds
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: 0

x. of scars on my body?: i think 6

x. of things in my past that I regret? i wish i never smoked pot.

grindin
today was so weird. the girl i sat for last month died a few weeks ago, she was only 13. but she was blind because she had brain cancer. and we cleaned her house today as a favor. i swear shes haunting it. it was so creepy. then millies cell phone fell in a bk bag and we threw it out with out knowing. and then we had to dig threw acmes trash and found it. theres this shit story i must tell. about judy. well, she got fired from the bar in egg harbor last week. so she was looking for a new job. and of course she took mine, ot caring about me making money or anything. i was so bummed that i wasnt gonna have a job for the rest of the summer. even if i did i would never find a job that would pay 8 beans an hour. so i pretty much thought i was fucked. so... today was gonna be judys first day. but she was sick, so millie woke me up. and begged me to work today, pay-free. i couldnt say no so i went. in the middle of all this shit (when judy got fired) well. judy worked at her boyfriends dads bar. she got drunk behind the bar while working. she only drank one beer. now believe me, judy does not get drunk after one beer. come to find out her boyfriends friend was there and he sliped judy something in her drink, when judy came to she was in this car with this guy and gurl. and she was so smashed she freaked out. and they told her she was sick so they are taking her to carls house. they ended up in the woods, and the gurl calls up carl and says 'uhhh carl im fucking your girl friend right now...' on and on with all this dirty shit. so carl got all mad really thinking judy was out screwin around with some dirty whore. and she wasnt so the cops came because carl told them where they were and the guy and girl got arrested for selling coke. and they asked judy if she had any but she said she doesnt remember what happened. stupid girl. well she came home fine and every thing and that was last week. but today she woke up puking and i know why. shes fucking pregnant.well. i think that was the longest thing i ever did. oh yea, i was at the ocean today and the beach was so beatuful. a storm is coming. im going to curl my hair...good day